Patience- the capacity to accept or tolerate delay, trouble, or SUFFERING without getting angry or upset.
The natural doesn’t make an ounce of sense. Here’s the deal. Surgery was started, incisions were made, the robot was put in place and then my oxygen levels dropped to dangerous levels so they had to stop surgery. The surgeon thought that maybe there was a blood clot in my lung- which is common after IVIG treatments- took me for x-ray and NOTHING! No explanation. They took me to ICU where it took 3 hours for me to come out of the anesthesia… which resulted in me needing the respirator. that was the pits! Panic and discomfort are the words to describe it.
Once I got my bearings I was told the news… no thymectomy. I couldn’t believe it. Everything that had been done to prepare for this surgery- my students not having their teacher, the unpaid leave, the expensive treatments, the pain and discomfort I was feeling- all in vain. How could this be?!
“The capacity to ACCEPT SUFFERING without anger.” I must accept that God knows what is best and for some reason He stopped the surgery. I cannot get wrapped up in the expenses, the delays, the suffering. I’d had very specific prayer requests… for the anesthesia to not make me panic, that I wake up normally from the anesthesia, for my recovery to go well, and for my cure. I didn’t even realize when they gave me the anesthesia, the recovery is going well (my MG hasn’t flared up at all- this is HUGE) the respirator was only for 3 hours Vs days, and my cure is up to Him.
So even though this didn’t go the way we’d hoped we still hold steadfast to our hope in Him.
“But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord,
whose confidence is in him.
They will be like a tree planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit.”
Author: Linda Nulisch